I was overweight for most of my life. I started gaining weight at a very young age (probably around 8 years old), but my doctor always said that I would “grow into” my weight. This theory seemed to work until I was about 14 and I began to pack on some serious pounds.
I had gone on all sorts of diets, from weight watchers to cutting carbs, to eating very few calories, but the results were always the same, I would lose 20lbs and then plateau. Whenever I hit a plateau I would lose all motivation and eventually put back on the weight I had lost. It was a viscous that never seemed to end.
After high school I went away to college and gained more than just the freshman 15. I ballooned to over 250lbs in a little over a year. I was completely out of control, I was no longer active and I was going partying all the time. I was the funny fat girl in my group of friends and that’s all I thought I would ever be. I couldn’t stomach looking at myself in the mirror anymore, so as a result I would get depressed and eat my feelings.
One morning after a weekend of partying, drinking, and drunk eating for my best friend’s 21st birthday, I noticed I was tagged in some Facebook photos. That’s when it all came to a crashing halt. I looked at the pictures and burst into tears. It wasn’t just that I didn’t like how I looked, I also hated the fact that I was completely unhealthy. I weighed myself for the first time in months and was a whopping 270lbs.
I was slowly killing myself and I had to do something to stop it. I decided at that moment that I was going to change. I was going to turn myself into a person I’d be proud to look at in the mirror.
The first thing I decided to do was completely cut out junk food, soda, candy, and cookies. After a few months, I saw some results and decided to restrict my calorie intake to about 1000-1200 calories a day. I bought a gym membership and became a cardio bunny. I would go to the gym and run on the treadmill until I was dizzy.
I would spend HOURS A DAY at the gym strictly doing cardio. Next, I found out I had a gluten allergy, so I completely cut it out of my diet. But then I went a little too far. I completely cut carbs aside from fruit or vegetables. I began “clean eating” to the extreme and restricted my calorie intake even further while increasing my time at the gym.
By this point in time, I was only eating about 500-750 calories daily. I had zero energy and couldn’t do anything other than workout or sleep. I withered away to 140lbs and still considered myself “fat”. I started weighing myself multiple times each day. I would look in the mirror, cry, and then eat my emotions. I would binge for hours at a time, then I would purge at night. This also went on for months and months… I was killing myself in a totally different way and I couldn’t stop.
It took me some time, but I finally realized how crazy I had become and I started making small changes in a healthy direction. I stopped wanting to be “skinny” and started training to be stronger - both mentally and physically. I was doing significantly less cardio and started lifting weights. I started to see muscle definition and I loved it. Things were going great until a string of emotionally draining events happened in my and I was thrown back into the vicious cycle.
It was at this point in time that I became apart of BiteSizedFitness, which is something that has totally changed my life forever. Since I had no idea what to do at the gym, I needed some serious direction and guidance. Alyse’s workouts were easy to follow and kicked my a$$. My confidence at the gym was at an all time high and I wasn’t afraid to lift with the boys. The nutritional guides were extremely helpful and I was able to stock my fridge with all kinds of nutritious foods.
Working with BiteSizedFitness has been one of the best experiences in my life. There has been nothing but positivity and good vibes from this experience and I cannot begin to tell you how grateful I am for everything!
At one point during the program, I was approached at my gym to start TEACHING classes. The gym owner had been watching me for weeks, seeing improvements in both my appearance and my workouts. He wanted me to teach a strength class that would help other girls overcomes their fears of lifting. I was in shock, I couldn’t believe that others were noticing the changes in me and it felt great!
With Alyse’s workout and nutritional guides at my side, I can without a doubt say that I will be living a happy and healthy life from this point on. She has been more than just a gym coach, but a life coach. She taught me more that I could’ve ever imagined learning in just 12 short weeks! I will confidently continue workout and lift heavy, as well as cook myself healthy in the kitchen!